Sometimes, Always and Never

I am sometimes rattled even when I feel like I have my shit together. I always get my work done in a timely manner and never feel that if someone had to check it, that I would have to explain myself.

I have never been audited, but last week the County Auditor popped her head in and explained that sometimes they have to do these things, and that sometime was now.

I found myself having to answer questions that I never really had to answer before. I have never had to explain my work down to every little detail, like how I photocopied documents or how I then placed those documents in people’s files. I never had to explain the process of how I schedule people for training or how my own personal spreadsheets work; I then had to give a detailed time-frame spent on each of these processes.

I am almost always polite to people the first time they ask me a question. But I sometimes I lose my patience once it’s the second or third time that they ask me the same question, which she always seemed to be doing.

I have never been cross-examined by a defense attorney, but that’s the image that I thought of as the auditor asked me all these different questions. About this time I became hostile, which can sometimes happen, so we took a break and won’t be continuing until next week. And after next week, I hope I never get audited again and I hope you don’t either.

(This was from a writing exercise that we sometimes do in my Lumina group. The exercise was to always use one of the three words in the title of this piece in every sentence. I can tell you right now, I will never do that again.)

Tags: always, never, Sometimes